A Poem to Liu Xia
written by Zeng Jinyan
written by Zeng Jinyan
TO LIU XIA
A poem by Zeng Jinyan
December 25, 2014
She chooses
The train heading toward the re-education through labor camp
In her splendour bridal dress of black
Skirt swirled open
A bouquet tossed
Into a future prison cell (into a prison cell 20 years later?)
She chooses
To circle
From the living room to the kitchen
To the bedroom to the study
Smoking a long, thin cigarette
As she decocts a pot of herbal medicine
She chooses
To make a list (To count?)
The noisy sparrow on the branch
The snowflake floating down from the sky
To drink a glass of blood-red wine
And ride, without moving, for a mile or two
She chooses
This regret
This man who came bearing hearty wine and song (the man does not
drink but service wine to her, how to translate?)
A pack of grinning lothario poets for friends (?)
To draw the ghost of Kafka
Into the howls of her ugly dolls
She chooses
The silence
Of a howl in a Tsvetaevian love poem
Or the shadow of a bird cast with fingers at dusk
A line of white letters on black paper
The soft click of a shutter
In pale makeup
And black armor
The fog that never recedes
Her
Neverending performance art set
That unfolds on a stage with no exit
致刘霞
曾金燕
她选择
开往劳动教养所的火车
黑色是新娘华美的礼服
监视者眼光中铺展裙摆
花球轻掷
未来监狱囚室
她选择
徘徊
从客厅到厨房
从卧室到书房
抽一支万宝路
熬一锅中药汤
她选择
清点
枝头聒噪的麻雀
天空飘落的雪花
喝一杯血红美酒
原地骑行两千三百米
她选择
缺憾
一个斟酒唱歌的男子
一群傻笑放浪的诗友
画一笔游荡的幽魂
抚摸丑娃娃的嚎叫
她选择
沉默
于茨维塔耶娃呼啸的情诗
于日暮手指投影的飞鸟
写一行黑纸白字
快门咔嚓一声轻按
白妆容
黑披挂
她自己就是
一场无终结的行为艺术
盛开在没有边界的舞台
曾金燕
她选择
开往劳动教养所的火车
黑色是新娘华美的礼服
监视者眼光中铺展裙摆
花球轻掷
未来监狱囚室
她选择
徘徊
从客厅到厨房
从卧室到书房
抽一支万宝路
熬一锅中药汤
她选择
清点
枝头聒噪的麻雀
天空飘落的雪花
喝一杯血红美酒
原地骑行两千三百米
她选择
缺憾
一个斟酒唱歌的男子
一群傻笑放浪的诗友
画一笔游荡的幽魂
抚摸丑娃娃的嚎叫
她选择
沉默
于茨维塔耶娃呼啸的情诗
于日暮手指投影的飞鸟
写一行黑纸白字
快门咔嚓一声轻按
白妆容
黑披挂
她自己就是
一场无终结的行为艺术
盛开在没有边界的舞台